This weekend, I previewed THE ROAD by Cormac McCarthy, because kid-1-boy-1 was assigned to read the book for an AP class. My experience with Cormac McCarthy is a depressing one. Years ago I read ALL THE PRETTY HORSES and found it to be one of the most hopeless books. After getting to page 91 of THE ROAD, I knew K1B1 did not need to read a book about nuclear Armageddon and cannibalism. K1B1 and I looked through the list of recommended AP books, so we could choose another "modern" lit option. We had a difficult time finding a book free from the themes of immorality, drug and alcohol abuse, homosexuality, murder, broken families, etc. I was disgusted by the time the we picked a book. Our happy choice...a book about living in a Russian gulag. Modern cultural forces are dark and scary.
Sunday I watched a movie about modern life in Antarctica. I was interested in this because I have read Shackleton's book and Gerrard-Cherry's book about arctic exploration. Most of the scientists interviewed in the documentary were evolutionists. They agreed that mankind is on the brink of extinction. They were grim about the future for our form of animal life. It is ironic that these people who are so hopeless about the meaning of and future for human life are so desperately trying to gain knowledge and garner physical experiences. What is the purpose? Why work so hard to attain something that disolves into nothing along with the rotting human corpse? I don't understand evolutionists.
Friday, the 13th of February, we bought our 13th car. Good luck or bad luck?
Also that day we received news from LDS Family Services that they would not let us adopt through them. For two days I was pretty heartbroken. I decided that I didn't want to be sad and depressed. I guess I willed myself into moving on. My thoughts are to pursue other avenues for adoption. I am alone in those thoughts. Therefore, I am going to live as fully as possible in the reality that is mine. I don't understand why this turned out as it did. I really thought God had a different plan for us. I guess not. I don't want to waste precious energy questioning life circumstances. So don't cry for me Argentina or something like that.
2 comments:
hey sky,
I'm really sorry to hear that. You must be heartbroken. You might want to talk to Liz. She was telling me about an agency in Utah that takes children from mothers who were going to abort, but decided against it. She has some friends who have had success there. I hope all is well, and this info helped out some. We will see you next week.
Betsy
Betsy:
I can't wait to see your kids. I also hope to have time to get to know you a little better. As for adoption, Artie thinks God has something else in store for us. I get the sense that I'm the only one here that was truly saddened by the result of our application process. I had told the kids it would be a long shot for us to be approved. I think only I had my hopes up. The way my oldest son is acting, maybe it is okay that we only have four kids...
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